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TO JOSHUA
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A letter wrote on 05/08/00
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1 year after the accident:
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I can't believe that I have lived without you for 365
days. During the first few days and weeks, I was so
sure I could not go on. I am still so sad and shocked
that you are gone. Mommas are not supposed to
outlive their babies. On good days, I remember you
and all the sweet things you did. I remember the
times that we shared and my heart overfills with
love and sadness. I am thankful for those wonderful
times we had. You were the best little boy I could
have ever hoped for. You brought your Dad and I
such joy. You taught us about love and sacrifice.
You still teach me. You teach me that that I am
strong, stronger than I realize. You have shown me
that there is so much more to life than right here
and now. I hope that your short life was happy, and
that you never forget how much we love you. I try
to forgive myself now for the faults that I had. I
pray that you forgive my shortcomings too. I carry
your memory deep in my heart and always will. I
can never go back and change the day that you left.
I have wanted to a trillion times. All I can do is
live my life and make you proud. I miss you so
much. My life is so empty without you
Joshie....Please look down on us with love.
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