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Hello Everyone: My name is Pat
Let me start by saying I have lost both of my only children.
Kurt (my youngest) was killed in October 1998. He was killed by a drunk driver. He was serving in the U. S. Airforce at the time of his death, serving in Great Falls Montana at the time. He was prior to his enlisting an EMT & Firefighter in our local community.
Kurt Alan Miller 1/21/78 to 10/6/98.

Kevin was my oldest son was killed in April 1999, due to not wearing his seat belt in the vehicle he was a passenger in at the time. He was living and working in Texas at the time. We did have time to say Good-bye to him, yet he was legally brain dead at the time.
Kevin J. Connelly 10/20/70 to 4/20/99.

Both son's knew the importance of Organ Donation, so we were able to donate Kevin's vital organs and he saved 4 lives that we know of. I strongly support Organ Donation also.

I will miss you both forever until we are able to Reunite, when God is ready for me as well. I will forever have two of the greatest angels looking over me until we reunite.

I am forever changed. My life without them will never be the same. I am truly blessed to have the greatest Family & Friends support system anyone could ask for.

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My Child Died Today

It washed over me, that pain, emptiness, sadness,
and just then the fog rolled in.

The fog most will never know and Lord
I hope they never do.

From out of nowhere friends, family
loved ones. All gather, yet here I sit in this
fog, I have never known before.

Decisions to be made, yet as I sit
here in this chair, all I feel is despair.
The fog just won't go away.

Please Lord let me go back to sleep
and when I awake, let this fog be gone.
For I can't take this pain today.

Robotic moves become the norm,
today as I make choices, plans, and
yes prepare to bury you my child.

Now it hits like a ton of bricks,
my hopes, dreams, and future are all gone
somewhere in this fog.
Worse yet so are your dreams for your
future. They too gone in this fog.

How do I do this, what am I supposed to do?
Family all look on and watch to see
should they help, should they not
Questions, please Lord stop the question!

My Child died today, What do I do,
Where do I go?

How do I do this, why do I have to do this?

Please someone help me, please someone
tell me this isn't happening?
Please Lord take this horrific pain away,
make these feelings flowing fast and furious
all disappear.

I lost My Child Today!
Now what do I do?
Where do I go?
How do I live?

These many questions are from my broken
heart, how do I go on, should I go on?

When do I get those answers?
My Child Died today?

By Pat McDougle
In Loving Memory of her most precious Boys.
Kevin J. Connelly & Kurt Alan Miller

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My Anger, My Loss

Well, Lord here I sit once again,
waiting for the reasons,
the lessons, and most of all
the answers to my questions.

You loaned me this child,
You had trust in me to teach him,
You had faith in me to Love him,
Yet now you found you needed him
more then me.

Why, I ask?
Why, so soon, I ask?
Why, now I ask?
Why, My child I ask?
All the anger I have,
The questions I ask.
Yet no answers from you at all.

Oh I have been told they are out there.
The answers, I mean.
I for one just haven't found them.

Could I accept them?
Would I accept them?
Will I ever accept them?
All more questions!

My faith in you has become a challenge,
My faith in why has also been c

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