11/26/01: Please bear with me as I construct this site. Rudy's loss is so recent that I find it difficult to stick to the task at hand --- the photos evoke memories that take me beyond the keyboard. Sorry . . . Thanks for visiting and please check back in a few weeks.
06/18/03: Well, it's been more than a few weeks. I've tried numerous times to work on this page but have not been successful due to my inability to cope with the emotions awakened. But I am now determined to deal with the grief and face Rudy's loss. Thanks for bearing with me!
RUDY - Our beloved Terrier Mutt
August, 1985 - September 11, 2001
Gone but NEVER Forgotten.
Rudy entered into my life as an adorable little white and black ball of fur that I fell into love with at first sight. He had been turned into the local animal shelter as an unwanted pet. His age was estimated at 2 - 3 months and he was in a sorry state -- dirty, matted, skinny, and scared to death. The wonderful folks at the shelter cleaned him up, and put him on a routine that added a few pounds to his scawny little body. They also gave him what was probably the first affectionate human contact he had ever experienced. They saw beyond the sad, woe-begotten little pup before them, and saw the vision of the wonderful companion he could become.
Unfortunately, no prospective adopters visited
the shelter to view this transformation. His allotted time was up and the date made for unwanted pets was on the horizon. A kind employee circumvented his date with destiny by placing him in a petstore where she was sure the exposure would net him a home. That is where I entered the picture.
I don't patronize stores
that sell dogs or cats. This store sold supplies only, and that was what brought me in. The last thing I expected to do was to leave with an animal! But this sad little fellow who timidly wagged his tail when I spoke to him, won me heart and soul -- so there we were!
First stop was to the vet's, where a thorough evaluation
was conducted. It was quickly determined that this was not a pup of 2 or 3 months -- he was at least 9 or 10 months -- possibly as much as a year old. His younger appearance was due to delayed development caused by months of malnutrition prior to his stay at the animal shelter. With proper nutrition and lots of love and attention, he blossomed into the healthy, energetic, and beloved companion he was born to be.
Finding a toy buried under the snow!
Following one of his many stays at the vet's. You can see the bandage from the IV.
At the age of 8 years, on a routine check-up at the vet's, Rudy was discovered to have a heart murmur. Grade 3, the vet cautioned that it was a sign that heart problems would probably evolve in ensuing years. At age 12, Rudy was diagnosed with the beginning stage of Congestive Heart Failure and was put on low dosages of Lasix and Encard.. Thanks to early intervention, he did well and remained fairly active but the disease did progress. As his illness worsened, his body weakened and with a compromised immune system, a minor bug would put him in the vet's on IV's. Still, his spirit remained strong even as his frail body let him down.
On that final day, that awful day for all Americans, I
went to work with high hopes. The previous week he had experienced a set back and I had felt that awful decision to let him go was at hand. His coughing had increased and the meds weren't helping. His appetite had become almost non-existant and only through hand feeding was I able to get a few morsels of food into him. But the evening of 9/10 he actually ate a few mouthfuls on his own. To be, it was a wonderful turning point!
Shortly before lunch, I learned what was happening in
our nation. Stunned with the news, I went home during my lunch to check on Rudy. Perhaps sensing my distress, he was there at the door to greet me at the door. He seemed better and that was a bright spot in what was certainly a dismal day -- Perhaps I was just distracted and didn't see the signs I should've seen . . .
I returned to work and upon
walking in the door at the end of my work day, I immediately called Rudy as I always did. He did not come but I could hear his tail thumping against the floor in the livingroom where he had a favorite spot to lay. I went to him and immediately saw the drastic change. He was obviously in distress and, although he tried, he was unable to arise. His breathing was extremely labored, he was noticeably scared which increased his coughing and I knew he was suffering to a totally unacceptable degree.
On that horrible day, while our country was in
such turmoil, I had to say goodbye to my old friend and faithful companion. Rudy, I can only surmise there was a greater reason that you had to leave me that day. Until we meet again . . .