Things I Have Carried
Up these wooden stairs
then down
and up again
I’ve carried bags of groceries,
loads of dirty and clean laundry,
a suitcase packed for departure and return,
my journal half-filled with thoughts,
new and used books of poems
I’ve carried the outside in:
arranged the sun, moon, stars, rain, wind
in all the rooms of the house
to suit my mood or change it
I’ve carried the inside out:
releasing my words
as butterflies appear
floating/fluttering in the garden
Up these wooden stairs
then down
and up again
I’ve carried myself
day and night, all seasons
becoming accustomed to the creaks
in some of the floorboards
especially on those days
when I’ve been weighted down,
feeling lost with loss
On some occasions
I have not carried anything
instead found a place in time
to silently wait for words,
answers or questions
I’ve taken a seat at an open window
to view what stirs and is still
while a crow perched
on the neighbor’s fencepost
keeps an eye on my next move
or so I’d like to believe
I’ll carry the thought of you with me
as soon you too will walk these stairs
bringing a greeting, stories to share,
perhaps a flame without the candle,
a drop of rainwater, a feather if you will—
anything to add to or take away
from the weight of things
Rear View Mirror
While idle in my car at stoplight
waiting for the long minute
before turning green and moving on
I look in the rear view mirror
to examine faces of characters
waiting in their vehicles behind mine.
I watch and nobody knows but me
how discreetly, how deeply I watch
the driver and passenger
talking to each other too much
or not enough or not at all—
not that I’m one to judge – just curious…
Then there’s the solitary driver
with cell phone pressed to one ear
while extracting wax from other ear
with pinky finger.
There are all those lost in thought
got-to-get-to-where-I’m-going drivers,
those head-bobbing-to-some-radio-tune drivers
Or take this gal behind me last night—
smirk on her face, tilting her head
at an odd angle— for a moment I couldn’t
figure her out, but then realized that she too
was looking in her rear view mirror
at what was directly behind her, or maybe
she was just admiring her own reflection
and thinking that nobody had a clue
to what she was up to.