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Does everyone know God's will for their life is, except me? I honestly don't know what his will for my life is and sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one.
I've heard a lot of talk and a lot of preaching about God's will, as in knowing and obeying--or even not obeying, but nothing about not knowing what it is. I've consulted friends, family, strangers, and spiritual leaders concerning this lack of knowledge and I've been told to ask and to pray--and I have. I've been told that I need to be patient--and I have. I've also been told that God will reveal his purpose in time--and he hasn't...thus far. It's been years now and I'm still waiting, still believing for revelation, and still trying to be patient, while still feeling very much left out of the spiritual loop, so to speak.
I asked myself, what does the Bible have to say about God's will for our lives? Do we all have one? Is he willing to reveal it...always? The Bible tells me that God does indeed have a plan for me: Proverbs 16:9: In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. Psalm 57:2: I cry out to the Most High God, to God who fufills his purpose for me. Psalm 138:8: The Lord will fufill his purpose for me.
The Bible also tells me that God is certainly willing to let me know his will: Amos 3:7: Surely the Sovereign Lord does nothing without revealing his plan to his servants the prophets. Romans 12:2: Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing, and perfect will. Ephesians 1:9: And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ.
So how come I don't know? ...I don't know.
I've wondered if perhaps God's will for our life is simply the spiritual and natural gifts and talents he gives us? I don't as yet have a spiritual gift, at least not one that I'm aware of. I like to think I have some small artistic talent as well as a talent for writing, yet God has not chosen to avail himself of either. I have also wondered if God's will is simply what we want to be when we grow up. Personally, I've already gone past the point of grown-up, but what I've always wanted to be is a writer. It's my love, my passion, and my dream. But unfortunately, every avenue I've taken to encourage this dream has failed miserably. Thus, I am left to believe that whatever his good reason, God's will is not for me to be a writer. This is perfectly okay, although it wounds me deeply at times, because I am willing to give up everything for God. It's not a lot to ask considering what he gave up for me. But it would be a tremendous help if I knew exactly what God wanted me to do with my life. It matters little if my clay is for noble or common purpose, so long as I know it is God's purpose.
So here I am full circle. What is God's will for my life and how do I find out? I don't know.
I only know it has weighed on my heart and mind for some time now. And I know that however, whomever, and whenever my answer comes, in the interim, I will wait patiently and trust. Because if I have learned anything in my long walk with God, it is that he is never late--he is also never early, but he is never, ever late.
And I also know Romans 8:28: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose...
...whatever that purpose might be.
And if it isn't just me...if there's someone else out there who shares my predicament, maybe it will help to know this much...you are not alone.

by Je' Leites
It was brought to my attention by a visitor that I had made a mistake. The article refers to God's will for my life when what I meant was God's call for my life. I have since found that calling.

 

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